Baptism

Emma's Baptism was this past Sunday. The day was beautiful and everything turned out great. The day was about Emma being blessed and all I could think about was how blessed I was to be her mom. She did a great job at church she didn't cry only a little wince when we had to lay her back for the priest to pour the water over her head. It was kind of funny because she had a lot more hair then the other babies so it was dripping all down her when she was done. Father Rudy did a great job and the ceremony was really beautiful. We got a lot of remembrances of the day. A unique shell that he used to pour the water. A rose in honor of pro choice and rosary. A piece of cloth from St. Katherine Drexal and the holy water they used to bless her with. We kept it all in a beautiful box my cousin Linda got for her. Its a sacrament box. Here are some pics of the day. Her dress was hand made for her from my wedding dress. It turned out beautiful.

I can't believe how much you could love a child. I never thought in a million years I would love a baby like I love my daughter. She is the world to me. Emma has come such a long way in 5 short months that she meet us. I am just so amazed at her. This week has been a bad week. She got herself into a little trouble and needed a trip to the ER. What a horrible mom I must be to have her home for 5 months and she already has a trip to the ER. My heart hurt so much for her as each doc had to come in to look at the cut on her ear. Of course first the triage nurse, then reg nurse, intern, his boss, his boss then a plastic surgeon. Did we really need this many doc to look at one little cut on my baby's ear. as each doc come in she got more and more upset. All I keep thinking is I wish she talked so she could tell me her fears. I know with each new person she saw, she thought, no please don't take me away. It killed me to know that she doesn't yet understand she is not going anywhere. That no one will ever take her away from me. She is such a trooper she did need a couple stitches but doc said it will heal with no problems. I just wanted to jump into her place and take all her pain and fears away. It took everything I had not to cry in front of her. Try to keep a smile on face (I thought this was a good idea, if I looked happy then she would to). so now I am sitting hear two days later crying my eyes out that my little baby was hurt. mIssing her so much now because she is sound asleep and I can't wait till morning to hold and kiss her. She is such a happy little girl, always smiling and laughing, dancing and singing and being silly. I just can't believe how lucky I am to be Emma's mom. I wish I could spend every moment of the day with her. I hate having to go to work and missing time with her. I am so grateful I have the next three days off with her and can't wait to do fun things with her. The best thing that ever happened to me was the day I got the call that I had a daughter. While I knew how happy I was that day and weeks to follow I had no idea how happy and great life would be once she was in my arms. She now says ma ma and it melts my heart. She takes my face in her hands and gives me kisses. She runs over to me and gives me a big tight hug when I get home from work. I just can't believe how much we have bonded together. My little girl is the best most rewarding thing in my life. I am so happy that I was chosen to be her mom. I love you my little Emskie.